- Itchiness: Severe
- Flaking : Minimal
- Burning skin: Moderate
- Redness: Limbs
- Soreness : Hands, limbs
- Weeping skin : Limbs, Hands
- Mood : Unforgiving
When I have no support whatsoever
When I cannot do the right treatment
When I cannot even launder my bandages properly
Then I destroy and setback the healing
I itch, I suffer, I hate
I m so alone
I am not asking for advices
I just need some prayers
So much bitterness, I cannot lay my eyes on her or her son who resembles her, and my child who in turn resembles his dad and loves her. I no longer see possibility of claiming back my place in my home. I see her, i feel like throwing up. Any physical contact, I irk. She treated me with disgust infront of domestic helper and child, I do the same.
Good advice received: What is the most important role of a parent? To teach your children the right way and to be happy. Sometimes the right way is not the conventional way.
But it matters to me, that parents cannot accept anything other than the conventional way. It matters to me if they feel as if I disgrace them.
The TCM is still working well, I saw progress especially in my hands
then today I had to scratch and sabotage my own healing
I could have faster healing if I am allowed to concentrate on it. Been a month, sticking to it another one. Hope to see persistent healing amidst all the self-sabotaging caused by all my crazy scratching.