- Itchiness: Moderate
- Flaking : Severe
- Burning skin: Moderate
- Redness: Calves, thighs, arms, peri-oral area
- Soreness : Limbs, face
- Weeping skin : Calves, thighs, face
- Mood : Irritated, unmotivated, can’t be bothered anymore
The past 4 years I have seen my weight yo-yo’ed more than ever in my past 36years.
Prior to dating around 2011 , I managed to diet and slimmed down 10kgs (from 63kg) in 6 months. I thought that was an amazing feat. I managed to stay in healthy lifestyle and weight was maintained at 56 kg.
Thereafter, I tried to slim down further for my wedding, I managed to go down to 53kg. That was the last time I dye my hair, put makeup on. Then came pregnancy, I stopped dye for hair. I put on just a little bit of healthy weight to 62kg in 2013 till full term. Not very big at all. Baby was just the right size for birth. I was very happy, although I look old.
OLD. My grey hair had people thinking my hubby was my son, after I finished my confinement period. My weight went right back to 57kg again by Feb2014. Perhaps because of breastfeeding. Weight loss was fast!
Then came TSW. I know TSW will cause weight loss. But I wasn’t prepared for such a major impact. I am now underweight at 45kg. I lost 12/13 kgs, right within 3 months by end Oct2014. I used to joke with a very close colleague of mine, how thin she is when she complains she is fat. I always tell her “try your next life, if you wanna be fat. I’ll try to be slim my next life too.”
But hey, guess I don’t have to wait till next life to have my hubby carry me in AND out of a room after all!!!! I joked that he can carry me multiple times if he wants to, compared to when we first married and he carried me just once into our new bedroom.
And now with the STUPID ELEPHANT SKIN I look even older. Several cabbies thought I am 50 years old, and I have nurses asking me if I am my son’s grandmother. I could have wailed on the spot. It is this, and that my son doesn’t cry out to me, that is the major cause of my depression now. And I know this elephant skin will stay for the next 3 years or so, that coming from TSW veterens. I wonder how they manage to put makeup or dye their hair??!?!?!??!
I am mainly now on an almost vegan diet, staying away from gluten, soy, dairy, refined sugar, nuts and shellfish. I eat a serving of pork once a week. But I am ALWAYS hungry, so very hungry any time of the day. I am glutton by nature so this is pretty tough for me…….. I am surprised tho, that I managed to stay away from caffeine from pregnancy till now. I used to be so addicted. Chocolate too. Sometimes I can really surprise myself.
Right now, am on the quest for healthy weight gain. But with the current diet, I just have no appetite. Everything tastes so bland, as I can’t have asian sauces mainly made with soy or refined sugar or shellfish. CAN DIE. Sometimes, I accidentally ingest soy, and I realise over time, the reactions from accidental ingesting forbidden foods have become less intense! Its as if the intestinal tract is getting stronger to fend for the inflammation usually caused by those foods.
So I am following through with the LEAKY GUT theory. And hopefully with more perseverence I will keep the glutton SueAnne away, and heal in miraculous speed.
Colour has improved, less red. Inflammation is less intense as I mentioned with my strict diet. But the relentless itch… erk. Guess nothing I can do to prevent that. The new thing happening, along with the hot crazy weather, is intense sweating. I am talking about 24 hours sweating, only relief is in the bath tub. OH the bad stench from sleeping in sweat is back, and no I cannot use air-con.
Skin is still far from healed. Air-con still affects me badly. I flake slightly lesser but am still attracting curious views from people when I go out.
PLEASE LET ME HEAL ALREADY! I BEG YOU! I AM DESPERATE!